Sayonara to 2011...and Annyeong to 2012!

Whoosh! Another year going to end in few hours~

I'm not scribble about my review on 2011 or resolutions for 2012 or whatsoever~

i've come to learn that it's best to face the life without a plan on how to spend the next 365 days.

two quotes played great roles when i was demanded to make a choice in critical situation. "My life, My way" and "Go with the flow"

Being 20 this year, i can't help but to feel old. Nonetheless i'm glad that i had finally stepped into my adulthood. 20 is just a number because even if i'm recognized for my age and so-called maturity, there are things that i'm strictly not allowed to do *sobs*

99% of the year, i was away from Kampar. due to studies and working lives that i went through and still going through, i'm having terrible homesick =( miss my teachers and peers in my beloved Kampar~

Well, i only have a single hope for the upcoming year. I want to have all the mental and physical strengths that i need to face the obstacles...

The journey is still a long way to go~

Happy 2012 everyone!

zZzZZzzZZ

i'm quite unsure why on Earth i'm sleeping too much these days...

whenever i get some decent amount of time, i find myself sleeping on my bed in a fetal position. not to mention, with my big brown teddy bear~ (that's my new sleeping aid since 9th November 2011)

even now, with 16mins more to my next class, i still energy-less and feels drowsy....huhu....i need to SLEEP~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

one true procrastinator~

hey all~

i'm currently in my second semester yet nothing beats the fun and excitement that i had for my previous short semester! brief update on this semester~

.::. 6 friggin' subjects! with two lecturers of the subjects are part-time

tutor <.<

.::. i'm in De'Voice MSU Choir Club and having tons of fun from screaming,dancing and singing...

and actually there's nothing much exciting other than these two things~

i will try my best to keep this blog alive...again, will TRY my best. no promises!

me and my crazy BFF Syaz~

torture me in a way i couldn't complain~

allow me to say this; Love is complicated. way too omplicated.

it's aching...

not just my body, but my mind as well.

sorry dear heart, for all the rollercoaster feelings that i had about him;

sorry dear brain, for all those overworks without supplying enough oxygen to you by not sleeping;

sorry dear wrist, for being the victim of my self-hurting whenever thoughts about him flashes in my mind;

and sorry me, for hurting myself and others around me because of one guy...

when things ends up like this, wishes are made...

wish that i never confess to him about my feelings...

wish that i never fell in love with him...

wish that i never get to know him...

i can never compare the love i had for you with others that i had previous. but one thing for sure, you are special in a way i couldn't figure out why i'm addicted to you!!!

love ya~

BRB!

I know i should update my blog especially now that i have started my university life. anyway, will be back with an entry of my life updates soon!!

let me be the one who colours my life~

Well not getting an offer from the IPTA doesn’t mean the end of the world, old folks. I’m sick of being an object that satisfies your dreams instead of mine. Apologies for disappointing you all several times and I had reached a mentality where I feel like I shouldn’t bother much about what you think I should do.

My Life, My way~

And that means I’m different than the others you had raised~

burning midnight oil...AGAIN

i'm back. seriously, i JAElous while reading my friend's blog posts. man, they are like..AWESOME. they write and share AWESOME stuffs. more important, it's like they are talking to us. (*bangs my head* why can't i write something like that?) i should stop my movie reviewing habits and start on something INTERESTING~

starting the post with my usual rant. first and most importand thing is -->

I'm going to start my studies like real soon. NEXT MONDAY~

well if you had read my previous posts, you would have known just how much i wanted to start studying again. i'm gonna spend my next 4 and half years in MSU for my Diploma and Bachelors in TESL~ if only i didn't screwed up my STPM, *sigh* anyhow, 4 years gonna fly so fast that in no time i will return to Kampar as an English teacher. *big grin*

but i have a BIG list of what should i buy. i can't even return to Kampar this weekend.

i miss my dad =(

[MOVIE REVIEW] KO~ Really is the KING!

-LOVE is what important not how the personality of the person that loves-

"KO" is a Tamil political-thriller flick. Starred by all-time cute but charismatic Jeeva and co-starred by Karthika Nair (who is the daughter of actress Radha) and Pia Bajpai~ The movie revolves a 2-month (if i'm not mistaken) period where it is the election time in Tamil Nadu and

about the individuals that were involved~

Let's start with what i love about this movie.

-This is a KV Anand's movie. if this name doesn't remind you of anything, then let me refresh your mind. He's the director of 2009 smash hit movie, Ayan. he directed "Kana Kanden" which was also one-of-its kind~ seriously, he rocked by making his movies have twists and turns which really impressive^^

-Jeeva! I don't really go gaga over this guy as i'm not much fan of his works. but i knew he's one of the talented actors out there. SMS was boring (though it appeals many of my friends) but KO is enough to pull me towards him ^^

- Story. That's the main attraction. The very first scene itself is freaking attractive. of course, after you had minus the unrealistic part (the bike scene during the chasing scene)~ i got an impression that "woah! i would kill to be a photographer like him" and quotes a line said by the actress; "His photos tells a story itself" and the credits definitely goes to the actual photographer for the movie. and there's the love part. it's the same cliché where both actress fell for the actor.

-The twists. I couldn't elaborate on this since it's will spoil the fun if you yet to watch the movie~ i seriously fell in love with that movie because of the twists~

-Music. Awesome works by Harris Jayaraj. enough said.

Something I don't like~

-i'm actually against the love part of this movie. Pia Bajpai is the crazy-like girl (we say "gila-gila" in Malay) and she loves Jeeva and once the actual main actress came enters the story, there

were sparks between Jeeva and Karthika~ And when he got to know Pia's love, Jeeva said I don't see her in that way and since her personality is crazy, he didn't take it seriously. that's kinda offending since i'm a more like Pia's character in this story. just because a girl is being childish and open-minded doesn't mean her love can be underestimate. and it's freaking OBVIOUS that Pia is in love with Jeeva in that movie but apparently Jeeva didn't realise~ i hate that~

Overall, KO is a must watch movie. and you are hearing it from a very picky Tamil movie-goer xD

Fangirling over Sidharth~

HELLLLLLLLLLLOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~

it's been a while,ne*?

so this post shall be all about my first ever crush. well he's an actor. (i know that's lame but yeah,that's me xD)

His name is Sidharth~ you can Google it if you need more info on him. He's really cute. maybe the first ever Indian guy that i think way too cute to go gaga over him.

His debut is a Tamil movie entitled "Boys"~ it was back in August (i think it is that month) 2003. to be more specific, he's my love at first sight. since that movie was about young boys, i thought he was 16 or maximum of 20 years old. shock came when i read his biodata and knew he was a

79-er which means he's 32 years old~ *sigh*

the greatest shock was in mid December 2003 when i read an tamil newspaper excerpt that mentioned his marriage with his girlfriend for years on 3rd November the same year. (it was only 2 days before my birthday) *sobs harder*

after managed to overcame my grief, i was happy to know his second Tamil movie will be released in 2004~ Aayutha Ezhuthu and i was totally fangirling over him again.

but that was it.

somehow producers and directors in Telugu film industry found he was talented and 'captured' him~ he was freaking famous in Telugu industry and moved to Bollywood and more success followed in suit.

overall, he's an awesome famous talented actor in both Telugu and Bollywood industries~

and now he's BACK TO KOLLYWOOD!!!!!!

his new movie is entitled "180 Rules Kidaiyathu" (literally means "180 No rules") and it's

directed to be released simultaneously in both Telugu and Tamil movie industries.

i want to watch that movie so freaking much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yes, i'm back as a Sidharth fangirl ^^

this picture is quite old but well,he's charming~ ♥

p/s : "ne" is actually a korean word that brings the meaning "yes" as in agreeing to something~

My new ♥

23^rd June 2011 marks the latest addition to our family. My eldest sister gave birth to a healthy 3.1kg baby boy. I’m an aunt again =) so that got me excited. I went to visit the mother and baby at the Roopi Medical Center around 3pm and found my mom chit chatting with another two women. Apparently, we are not allowed to hold the baby nor take a good close look at him due to hygienic reason. So we just waited outside the labor and some hours later, the nurse brought the baby for a wash and places him in the ward.

As for the baby, he’s a mini version of his dad. Well they did told me that the baby looks like his sister whom resembles the young me so I’d thought that baby would look like me. =.=

Nevermind, he’s my new love ♥

Snapped a few photos of him and this is one of them =)

isn't he such a cutie pie? ^0^

Regretting doesn't help~

just seconds ago, i noticed that a company that i applied for a job sent me an email, asking me to attend an interview tomorrow. and after replying their mail, a call from another company asked me whether is it possible for me to attend an interview for Data Assistant post in their company. too bad i had to decline the offer because the office is in MidValley and they will be relocating to most probably PJ sometime later in this year.

and minutes ago before i check my inbox or receive that call, my sister deeply regret that i quit my first job. well, i guess she finds me being lazy and useless after all. but i regret it most than anyone. i shouldn't have believe their words (yes,my own family members' words) but i guess i couldn't help it.

i went to Kampar to convince my father and brother to let me study in a private institute in May. and with heavy heart, they let me. i know it's quite expensive but it's worth it. my career path is diverse and i would find a job in any sector. so i handed my resignation letter on 29th or March since i need to give a month of notice in prior. i was happy and decided to use my salary on buying my dream netbook (which i did xD). and then there was this MUNSYI exam from USM for whoever applied for any course on the university's site. it was a normal personality test but my family think i now have a chance to enrol in public university. i'm simply tired of explaining about the fact that i don't have enough CGPA to enroll in any course.

now i should have been in my class,studying or revising if i had registered for the May intake. damn. i miss studying so freaking much that i envious of my friends who had started studying in other private institute.

and to add more to my already-annoyed-and-miserable state is when one of my sister said i should just find a permanent job and postpone my studies for a while. i was totally dumbfounded that i didn't reply her text message. so this is what they think of me. a complete useless sister that is good for nothing. at the end of the day all that matters was my exam grades.

there are so many things i regret actually...

regret for letting my emotions control me when it shouldn't...

regret for not focusing in class...

regret for not seeking for help when i had problems...

regret for listening to my family members words and decided to wait for November intake...

regret that i'm not staying at my parent's...

and the list would go on~

but i want to design my own life. i want to take the decisions in certain matter. i might make the wrong choice/decision but i'm sure it will help me to improve myself~

i'm a grown up now~ xD

holla! xD

am back and now i have something to share with you all. nothing much. it's just i had finally got my nose pierced!!!!!!!!!!!! lol

In Indian culture, it's a custom for young girls (those in early 20s) to pierce their nose. we Indians love to pierce~ Just kidding. so my mom and aunt were telling me to get done with it but i have this little fear in me for letting someone to simply pierce my nose,ok!

cr: to whoever that nose belongs to~

so after 'escaping' from them for almost two years, i finally got it yesterday (which means when i am 19 years and 6 months plus). the pain was excruciating but it's only for a while. i think the pain lasted merely a few minutes. after that it was all tingly~

so here's my current look~ bye bye childish look. welcome matured look! xD

Love is weird~

i'm curious. we can't fall in love twice? or maybe thrice? and all of them is not as true as our first love?

love is weird. once we fell in love with someone, be it one-sided or not, it actually affects the way we behave. i had fallen in and out love for...err...twice, i think. (both are one-sided) but i wouldn't say that my second crush is a fake love or merely an infatuation. i know i like him enough to dream my rest of my life with him. that's all.

love is weird. especially when it controls us. you just can't stop thinking about the significant one and probably there's always something about him/her that makes you smile like a fool. they say, if you are in love, it will portrayed on your face. you will be bright and romantic and bla bla bla~

love is weird. if you keep holding onto a guy that already showed a big 'X' sign for your love. why waiting when you know there's zero possibility that he would realize that he likes you anyway and returns to you? in my case, i would simply plaster the same answer he gave to me. although me too holding to my love for him.

as for my first love, i know it was as true as my second one and i had learnt to move on (just stop stalking his FB profile =.=;;) maybe i will fall in love again for the third time (which i don't think anytime soon) and it will be the same thing all over again.

p/s : my point of writing this is to those that thinks love only blossoms once, think again~ you can never expect to be your's wife's/husband's first and last love. try to move on and find another special someone to share your love. after all, love is meant to be shared isn't it? ^_^

Happy Teacher's Day~

i'm quite rebellious but in school, i think i had obeyed my teacher's instructions especially in my secondary school years. i have a very little precious memories of my primary school days which is mostly about my friends.

Primary School : SRK Methodist ACS Kampar

my beloved SRK Methodist ACS Kampar

i forgot what this block is called but this was where i spent two years (standard 3 and 5) and canteen was also in the same block~

this is one of the few places that i used to wait for my school van after school.

thanks to the school's Facebook page for having photos of the school for me to get the pictures of the school. so this where i spent 6 years and it was memorable. and even when i was saving all this photos from the page, my heart aches. i miss this school so much and not even stepping into the grounds for more than 8 years now made me feel terrible. i really hope that i can pay this school a visit when i return to Kampar next time. just want to walk around to see how my classes, from Standard 1 till Standard 6, IT room, huge and bright library, KH workshop, the old piano in the hall upstairs (i doubt that they still keep it) and the gathering hall below where we used to gather before the school sessions starts.

to name a few teachers that really guided me throughout those six years would be Mrs.Ng who was my Std.6 class teacher and Moral and Maths teacher as well, Mr.Termizi who was my Std.5 class teacher and BM,Science and PJK (for boys) teacher, Mr.Daud who taught me KH in Std.5, Mr.Sabri, my Malay Language teacher in Std.5 and Ms.Chan who really taught us to see everything in a different perspective.

Secondary School : SMK Seri Kampar

this school is awesome~ simply AWESOME! i don't give a damn of what those 'migrants' from other school said about this school. when you come as a guest, behave like a guest. enough said.

to talk about the teachers here, i have to begin with Sir Sham. as one could seen (if they knew me well) i'm close with this teacher. i first met him in 2005 when he was our substitution English teacher. and i remember how he looked like. since our's was an afternoon session, he have to go back after his morning session classes and freshened himself before returning to school to teach us. so his hair was long and wet which reminds me of Severus Snape in Harry Potter series. i think i had pointed that out to him and he cut his hair after a few months. sorry,sir but you look good with shorter hair. as for Sir Sham, he's the fundamental reason why i started to blog. he told me that blogging will improve my writing skills but apparently i still got low marks for my writing paper in MUET. lol. without him, my English would be terrible and i couldn't imagine that self of mine. so whenever people praise my good command in English, i would always thank Sir Sham for making it possible. but i have a long way to go in being a good user of the language,don't i? sir sham, i know you would be reading this post so i want to tell you that i'm grateful for every bit of advises and guidance that you gave me in these past 6 years. i hate to break down in front you but i believe i did that twice. i miss hanging out with you,sir~ and always remember that i'm one of your students who really admired you for who you are.

snapped back in 2006~ Mr.Shamsul Fadzali

and of course there are other teachers such as Cikgu Harun whom we called 'dad' since he's the head of disciplinary board (i was a prefect), Mr.Lim Fang Keong, the only teacher that calls me by my nickname "Nanthu" and he's the best when it comes to Maths, Ckg.Azila who made Biology as fun as it could be, Mr.Au, my responsible class teacher, Mr.Prem who was my class teacher for Form 1 (i miss him so much T.T) and Pn.Asimah who revived our love for Sejarah when she took over the class from another teacher. actually there a lot of them, but i want to keep the post short so that's all i can share with you all.

Finally, a word from me. it doesn't matter what school you are in now but always remember to have the fun to the max and it have to be without offending any teachers. because i believe respecting the teachers will make me a better student~ HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY!

I could really use a wish right now~

Another song that i'm really addicted to especially Hayley Williams (Paramore) part ^^ Presenting "Airplanes" by B.O.B ft Hayley Williams.

Can we pretend that Airplanes
In the midnight sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now) (wish right now)
Can we pretend that Airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now) (wish right now)


Yeah
I could use a dream or a genie or a wish
To go back to a place much simpler than this
Cause after all the partyin’ and smashin’ and crashin’
And all the glitz and the glam and the fashion
And all the pandemonium and all the madness
There comes a time where you fade to the blackness
And when you’re staring at that phone in your lap
And you hoping but them people never call you back
But that’s just how the story unfolds
You get another hand soon after you fold
And when your plans unravel
And they sayin’ what would you wish for
If you had one chance
So airplane airplane sorry I’m late
I’m on my way so don’t close that gate
If I don’t make that then I’ll switch my flight
And I’ll be right back at it by the end of the night


Can we pretend that Airplanes
In the midnight sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now) (wish right now)
Can we pretend that Airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now) (wish right now)

Somebody take me back to the days
Before this was a job, before I got paid
Before it ever mattered what I had in my bank
Yeah back when I was tryin’ to get a tip at subway
And back when I was rappin’ for the hell of it
But now a days we rappin’ to stay relevant
I’m guessin that if we can make some wishes outta airplanes
Then maybe yo maybe I’ll go back to the days
Before the politics that we call the rap game
And back when ain’t nobody listened to my mix tape
And back before I tried to cover up my slang
But this is for the decatur, what’s up Bobby Ray
So can I get a wish to end the politics
And get back to the music that started this shit
So here I stand and then again I say
I’m hopin’ we can make some wishes outta airplanes?


Can we pretend that Airplanes
In the midnight sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now) (wish right now)
Can we pretend that Airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now) (wish right now)

i could really use a wish right now
i could really use a wish right now (wish right now)
like shooting stars
i can really use a wish right now (a wish right now, a wish a wish, a wish right now)

Eenie Meenie - JB

first of all, i'm NOT a Belieber~ he doesn't impress me in any way and liking him...still would make me a pedophile ~ enough said. but i like this song of his ^^ Presenting Eenie Meenie by Justin Bieber and Sean Kingston~

Eenie, meenie, miney, mo
Catch a bad chick by her toe
If she holla
If, if, if she holla, let her go

She's indecisive, she can't decide
She keeps on looking from left to right
Girl, come a bit closer, look in my eyes
Searching is so wrong, I'm Mr. Right

You seem like the type to love 'em and leave 'em
And disappear right after this song
So give me the night to show you, hold you
Don't leave me out here dancin' alone

You can't make up your mind, mind, mind, mind, mind
Please don't waste my time, time, time, time, time
I'm not tryin' to rewind, wind, wind, wind, wind
I wish our hearts could come together as one

'Cause shorty is a eenie, meenie, miney, mo, lova
Shorty is a eenie, meenie, miney, mo, lova
Shorty is a eenie, meenie, miney, mo, lova
Shorty is a eenie, meenie, miney, mo, lova

Let me show you what you're missing, paradise
With me you're winning, girl, you don't have to roll the dice
Tell me what you're really here for
Them other guys? I can see right through ya

You seem like the type to love them and leave them
And disappear right after the song
So give me the night to show you, hold you
Don't leave me out here dancing alone

Can't make up your mind
Please don't waste my time
Not trying to rewind
I wish our hearts could come together as one

'Cause shorty is a eenie, meenie, miney, mo, lova
Shorty is a eenie, meenie, miney, mo, lova
Shorty is a eenie, meenie, miney, mo, lova
Shorty is a eenie, meenie, miney, mo, lova

Eenie, meenie, miney, mo
Catch a bad chick by her toe
If she holla
If, if, if she holla, let her go

Eenie, meenie, miney, mo
Catch a bad chick by her toe
If she holla, lolla, lolla
Let her go

Shorty is a eenie, meenie, miney, mo, lova
Shorty is a eenie, meenie, miney, mo, lova
Shorty is a eenie, meenie, miney, mo, lova
Shorty is a eenie, meenie, miney, mo, lova

Can't make up your mind
Please don't waste my time
I'm not trying to rewind
I wish our hearts could come together as one

Shorty is a eenie, meenie, miney, mo, lova
Shorty is a eenie, meenie, miney, mo, lova
Shorty is a eenie, meenie, miney, mo, lova
Shorty is a eenie, meenie, miney, mo, lova

credits : elyrics.net

Insomnia~

so my Insomniac era has returned! yup, i'm suffering from this illness for quite some time. if not mistaken since mid-2010 where i faced quite some dilemmas and eventually 'forget' how to just fall asleep in a natural way. sometimes i just have to force myself to sleep as i would have to go to school the next day. placing pillow over my eyes did help me a for a few weeks but ultimately it failed as well.

i think ever since i start to work is the time where i would simply dozed off when my head hits the pillow. and now that i'm unemployed, i'm back to being an insomniac. it's something unavoidable already.

and you know, i have this terrible longing to study and not to work. i wanna experience the tertiary studies life and this would be easier if i didn't screwed up my STPM. my family's financial is quite tight at the moment so my best option is to work till October and then register for November intake IF i didn't get any offers from public universities.

speaking of insomnia, it reminds me of this song which was originally sang by Craig David but a beautiful cover was made by Korean singer, Wheesung. I'm presenting "Insomnia" by Wheesung xD

Beauty is what's inside you~

today tagged along my sister to Mid Valley Megamall to shop for the new addition to their family. but first thing first. all three of us were hungry so headed straight to the Food Junction. the last time i was here was for my meet up with my Maya unnie. she ate ddeokbokki and i ate bibibimbap. so this time, i wanted to savor the ddeokbokki~

yummy! 그것은 맛있 었어

it was fun in choosing the baby's clothes. everything must in blue. and we kinda re-lived the phase where we shopped for her first baby, Visali 5 years ago~ don't ask me what baby it is. i already gave the clue above.

so reached home at 5 something and i just went to bed straight. didn't even bother to change. i was suffering from lack of sleep and the fatigue from shopping and walking just added to it and thus, i had a terrible headache this evening.

woke up at 8.30pm. thanks to my friend's SMS. my message alert tone is kinda cute and i woke up at once. after bath and dinner went online just to realise that :-

1) my FB friends spammed my news feed with videos and messages dedicated to their moms since it's Mother's day tomorrow. so i joined the clan as well. I wish i'm with my mom now. at least she is not alone. she's spending her day with her sisters (my aunties) and my bro and second elder sister. Love you,mom~

2) although i knew about Jaejoong was terribly molested, pulled and pushed and scratched by the Beijing fans last night, it seems that the fans ALSO mentioned HoMin's name during the concert which happens to hurt the trios. so there was a notice asking not to shout HoMin's name during their events. whatever it is, as long as my baby is hurt by anyone's act, it hurts me too~

3) my bestie told me about the smk raja abdullah case. watched the video and gasped. is this how the kids are behaving nowadays? since my bestie is a Chinese and from what she told me is that the reason for the 'beauties' to bully the poor girl is because she's ugly. seriously, wtf? since when not-being-ultimately beautiful is a crime in this world? if those four girls think that they are beautiful than that poor girl and that made them to have the power to bully her, they really deserve serious punishments by legal. my personal remark on this is Karma is b***h so watch out 'beauties'~ the video went viral and the four girls have been identified. it seems like what they did will land their beautiful faces on the Chinese newspapers' front page tomorrow. quoting my bestie, "see what they give to their mom on mother's day...so damn proud that they will cry"

Problem-free life~ wish i could have one

someday in last week, i got really upset with this guy friend of mine who apparently had a drinking session with his friends. initially i was mad at him because he made me worried by not replying all of a sudden. then when i knew he was drinking, i just said good night and off to sleep. the thing is i can tolerate with drinkers but not smokers. so when he told me that he's not addicted to it and only drinks once in a blue moon, i was okay with it. who am i to restrict him from having fun,right? but somehow he started to drink more frequently and i don't think i have the rights to forbid him to do so. and he told me that it's his only way to vent out his problems.

now, why am i telling his story? coz i'm thinking that i'm a normal person too and facing so many problems as well but WHAT is my way of venting it out? and as for him, he should really resort to other HEALTHIER options to ease his mind.

since i'm the youngest in the family and the age differences between my elder siblings are wider, i don't usually share my problems with them. i can't interfere in family problems as i'm considered relatively young to do so BUT the family problems still reach my ears.back then, i have my best friend around so i can always spill everything to her. but now i'm in Puchong and she's in Kampar and the only communication is through phone and MSN. so i'm used to hide my problems from them. i can blog about it but as you can see in one of my previous posts, i had mentioned that i don't want to "humiliate" any of my family members on online for people to read.

i'm amazed by myself sometimes. how can i keep all those emotions within me? i have no idea. but i'm still afraid that one day i will burst and it will seriously affect me. the only thing that bothers me at the moment is my current family situation and i don't want to elaborate more on that here.

p/s : apologies to my guy friend whose story was featured as the intro for my post ^^;;

Anime!

i'm not an anime "otaku"* but i do have some favourite animes that i love dearly~ and i want to talk about them.

The first anime that i watched was Clamp School. it has a cute storyline with three beautiful young lads as the leads. that was the anime that initiated my love for blonde-haired guys. i was deeply in crush with the Nakoru Imoniyama~

cute,isn't he? ^^

After that anime ended, i continued to watch quite a number of animes. Detective School Q, Honey and Clover, The Law of Ueki, Yakitate Ja-Pan and XXXHolic~

actually i wanted to write about the anime that i'm currently re-watching. it's Honey and Clover~
This is a simple story enriched with various of emotions. heartbreaking, cute and sweet love(s) and of course complicated love triangle(s). i would recommend a girl or boy to watch this anime to understand better of the opposite sex's feelings. and i will always end up relating myself with one of the character, Yamada. She loves Mayama, a fellow collegian and too bad it's one-sided love. the problem is the guy knew that she loves him but he can't accept her because he loves another girl. and he feels that Yamada is precious to him and yet don't want to accept her love. pretty complicated huh? that's what i love in this anime. it makes me think human's feelings are complicated just as the human body itself.

more about the anime

and the first episode of the first season of two with english subbed video

*Otaku (おたく / オタク) is a Japanese term used to refer to people with obsessive interests, particularly anime, manga and video games.

i'm blessed indeed~

inspired by a dear friend's post~

I'm thankful and it's...

because i love my current life as it is~

because i know what i want in my life~

because i have plans for my future~



because i bought a netbook of my choice using MY money~

because i had settled the debt that i owed my sister for buying me a handphone~

because i quit crying over split milk~

because i'm back with my best friend~

because i have more people coming up to me and say i made their day~

because i know there are people who loves me for who i am~

because i had the best first job one could have~

because i still love those 5 individuals just like i did when i first met them 3 years back~

because i think i can cope with my problems in a matured way~

because i stood up for my decisions~

because i had decided to live my life as i want it to be~

because i now have a male friend who spends time with me and helps me understand the opposite sex better~

because i have these cool girl friends whom i can share my problem and simply have a great time together~

because GOD was with me all this while and guides me for better~

because i had found back my trust in GOD~

(will edit with more...)

all about me (part 1)

as i posted on my Facebook, i just spent an hour to do some makeover for my blog. i like the background and the header especially~

this is going to be a random post and when i say random, it means that i will write whatever that comes to my mind.

i had seen quite a few people curse one of their family members or rant about their family problems on their site. what i don't get is how can people humiliate their own family members on the net? i'm a normal human being and believe me when i say being the youngest in the family carries more problems than benefits. but i can never show my emotions in my post even though something might have just went wrong in my house that very same day. well i guess that depends on the person itself. i wish i can vent it out like them because i don't know what is my problem "storage capacity". maybe one day i will burst and it shall be a self-destruction.

*deep sigh* finally i had decided to move on. yes, it's my crush that i'm talking about. if a boy can play the "i'm-hard-to-get" game, as a girl i can play it hundred times better~ so watch out,boy. one day, you will regret and i won't look back at you as i did all this while. period.

a month ago, i bought a cute and casual dress. and guess what, it's PURPLE! lol. i put it on and it's quite sexy. with a deep cut at the front *sigh* i need to find a method to wear the dress in a decent manner. can't expose too much coz i'm not used to.

A new addiction --> LANGUAGE!

two more days and then i will be a free (and lazy) bird again~ My last day of work is this Thursday which happens to be the last day of us spending in that very office in Bandar Puchong Jaya. Federal Furniture Industries staffs are currently busy relocating our office to Koi Kinrara by merging with the Masterons. and they don't need a receptionist since the Masteron company already have one so they are kind enough to help us with the calls. if i continue to work there, i would probably be promoted to Admin Assistant and placed with either Kitchen or Accounts division. higher salary but too bad i'm not following them. i love this office so much as this is my first ever job and i made it on the first ever interview i had. the COO is a humble person. he wouldn't boss people around and even do simple things such as sending faxes or photocopying by himself. nice huh?

after resigned from the job, i've decided to work on my fan fictions and catching up with K-drama and animes. and not to forget, my self-learning Japanese lessons~ japanese is fun but kinda complicated with so many sets of characters i have to remember. believe me when i say learning how to write and read Korean is easier than Japanese for non-chinese. i don't think i'll master writing in Japanese as i will struggle with Kanji characters. ganbarre,Nanthu-chan! *ties cloth around my head*

so you can pretty much see that i'm kinda love learning languages~ if everything goes as i plan, i would just complete my studies and work enough to save up some money and then fly to Korea/Japan/UK to gain more knowledge in the language. about marriage, i doubt i don't have any plans for that~

gotta update my DongBang blog next~ Cassies, if you happen to stumble upon this blog, make sure pay a visit to my DB blog too~ ^^

I'm NOT obesed!

all i know is that NOW i have the mood to blog but it's just i don't know what to blog about =.= i can be weird you know? lolx

I read in the newspaper that the government is going to take action for the dramatic increase of obesity among Malaysians. and somehow they had pointed that the school canteens and hawker stalls outside the schools are as the main reason. not that i'm against that but let see what are the choices that our students have.

1) School canteens
Nasi lemak, french fries, noodles,nuggets, burger chicken/beef patties and fruits are only a few to be named here. nasi lemak and noodles are high in carbohydrate and of course with some common sense still left within us, we all ought to know that those foods with high carbohydrate will make us SLEEPY~ and how can you expect the students to be alert in the classes after the recess hour? Nuggets and patties, well i don't have to point this out but these are really bad. processed foods have so many preservatives and it's like eating a BIT of meat with LOTS of chemical. so why school administration still allowing canteen tenderer to sell these foods? and those foods are not even hot! most of the time it were cold and hard. it totally turns down someone's appetite but are the choices most students have?

2) Hawker stalls
Personally speaking, i'm one of those who would skip her/his recess hour by lurking in a library so that i can save up the money just to buy snacks outside school. but believe me, it happened when i was in primary school. when i was in secondary school, i brought food from home or buy breads from bakeries. the reason is simple. hawker stalls offer a much wider choice of snacks which you won't get to see in your school canteen.

3) Parents
Parents are too busy~ Parents don't have time to fix snacks for their kids~ bla bla bla~ then teach your kids to fix them on their own! it can be light sandwiches with chicken ham or boiled hot dogs with scrambled eggs in a hot pack. all the parents need to tell them is that to have a balanced diet. breads with jam spread are fine too~

in my six and half years spent in high school, i can count how many times i have ever eat anything that was made by the school canteen tenderer. most of the time, it was either Gardenia bread that cost me 50cents or starve until i gets home and eat homemade food. now,that's a bad habit that can result in gastric pain~ so every single party have co-operate and find a resolution for this obesity problem --> similar to how i end a essay! lol..kthxbai~

Dreams - a sign to show how much we miss a certain someone?

dreams can be weird huh? lolx. i think i've dreamt my first love for 4-5 times just in this month alone. i don't know why him when i thought that i had moved on. some dreams are funny but in 99% of those dreams i had about him, he is my boyfriend. (only one dream so far where he was my colleague) there was a dream where he even introduced me to his mom as the girl he's in love.

about my current crush, i only dreamt about him once. and it's a normal dream where we are family friends. lolx.

This evening, i dreamt about my first crush (Siddharth,an Indian actor). kinda made me miss all those good times where i used totally crazy over him.

my once heartthrob~

New Netbook =)

YAY! I bought a new netbook~ can't be any happier than buying a netbook of your choice using your own money. so i bought my long time desire Acer Aspire One HAPPY and it's purple. well the obvious reason that i choose this brand out of so many choices out there is coz i love purple. i know it's lame but yeah, that's the reason. why i insist on buying this? they says that one's preference and personality are portrayed through her/his things. soon or later i will have people coming up to me and say "i know why you bought this netbook. because you love the color purple,right?" xD always stand for your opinion and love.

Name : Acer Aspire One HAPPY
Storage : 320GB HDD
Memory : 2GB DDR3 Memory
Battery : 6-cell Li-ion battery
CPU : Intel Atom N550 (1.5Ghz,1MB L2 cache)

it comes with Wi-Fi and LED LCD and even multi gesture! (you know, like the way you use your smartphones. push things over here and there)

and when i bought this netbook in Sunway Pyramid, it comes with 7 promo things. let me see. a headphone,cleaning kit, mouse, USB hub, mouse pad, keyboard cover and a bag. not bad huh?

thanks to Missy Miyen to introduce this netbook to me in one of the post in her blog. oops! it's already 4am over. i think my sleeping hours have changed. i slept for 3 hours and woke up fresh so decided go online and now i'm sleepy again~ wth? so nitez, peepz~

Am too busy~

My previous post is quite a rambling of what I felt at that moment. But I liked that self of me. To be able to express what I want in words is something that I usually won’t do.

Theng gave me a book to read. It’s called The Passage by Justin Cronin. She said it’s so nice and when she said so, I believe it would be a nice book to read. Too bad that I just can’t find enough time to read the book like I read Harry Potter saga. And I bought Sidney Sheldon’s The Sky is Falling. I always have a mutual attraction towards thriller books and Sheldon rocks when it comes to end a story in a twisted way. And Stephen King also. Bought a notepad yesterday and made a deal with Theng to write a fictional story by hand. It’s been a while since I write any fictional stories and already I have four on-going fan fictions on hiatus. *sigh* that’s why I’m thinking of spending at least a month after my resignation to finish my writing works. Well that cost me a month of salary but never mind. Along with the notepad, I bought a glass jar with papers to make paper stars. Speaking of stars, it reminds me of Taylor Swift’s Teardrops on My Guitar which has a line that goes like this;

“He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do”

that's the same reason why i'm making these paper stars~ The rumor has it that once a person made 100 paper stars, they can wish for one thing and it will come true. I have a dear wish that I really hope will come true. Yes, what you are thinking is right. I’m making a wish after I made a hundred of those stars^^

Pouring my heart out~

it's quite weird when you like someone and they knew it but still nothing happens~ i want to know what can i do to win his heart and make him mine (although all this should be said by a boy to girl not vice verse) i'm quite shallow when it comes to winning a boy's heart~ and if i should wait, i wonder how long it should be~ he don't have a girlfriend at the moment but when he have one other than me in the future, i would be devastated~ but i will move on except it would take quite some weeks or maybe months. mind you, it took me 3 freaking years to move on from my first love although he 'haunts' me a bit~ i feel like shouting to the world (here, it should mean my virtual world such as Facebook and Twitter) that I LOVE *inserts his name* SO MUCH!!!!!! but i can't do that,right?

-end of my rambling-

Japan and me~

Prayers for Japan~ really hope that Japan can get all the help they need to get back to their old self. They had survived not one but two atomic bombs but still, these tsunamis and blasts in nuclear plant reactors are terrorizing all of us. Ganbarre!

And that sensational cartoon that featured in Berita Harian with an intention to “lighten” our tense is an absurd act. But since they had apologized (sincerely or not), just hope no more such ridiculous actions from them.

Back to my life~

These few days it’s been hard for even me to understand my own feelings. There are times where I miss a certain few people so much and hate a few people over petty reasons. There’s someone who even said I’m being petulant because he didn’t send a reply to my text message. Well I’m not much of a SMS person so please appreciate when I take time out of my precious minutes for you. Moody and disgruntled at random times. No, it’s not the “time” of the month if that’s what you think could be the reason.


On the other hand, I had just been labeled as a “weird” colleague. Even I’m surprised to hear that from Puchong girl. I mean, I’m supposedly from Kampar; a small not-so-developed town so shouldn’t I am the village girl in this city? And this colleague of mine is kinda a...erm…I don’t what word should be used to describe her nature but she’s the typical type of Indian girl. For me, I can spend a lot for food as long as it’s delicious. I eat Italian, Japanese, Chinese and Thai foods. (Korean should be add to the list as I had tried “bibimbap” once) There’s a “Little Italy” café located just on the very next building of my office. For me who already been longing for a delicious plate of spaghetti, her refusal to tag along for lunch is a great dismay. And the reason was she never tried nor will try Italian food. Duh, but no one likes to have lunch alone. She was greatly surprised that I’m willing to spend more money for food when I had Domino’s Pizza for lunch and huge piece of King’s Tiramisu cake. I never hesitate to spend money for food. Be it treating myself or my friends. And she never tries Japanese rice cakes that I bought for snacks.

Currently I’m not in any romantic relationship. I’m not even serious in looking for one. Many expect me to have one or two by now but I’m single. *laughs* My last (and current) one-sided love is only a year plus old. Some more I’m not rushing into this matter.

My bestie and I had a little chat last evening and we were planning for a girls-day out in KL which might be on Labor’s day holidays. I’m looking forward as we never been outside Kampar as trio and this could be the chance for us to heal our wounded friendship. Loges and Thenga, me <3

I am Number Five

^ I’m the fifth and youngest addition to my family and heck, even my birth date is 5.

Before starting on my rambling for the day, let me remind you that I’m 19 years, 3 months and 4 days old.

So as a girl who’s in her last year of her teen life, I found that the movie I AM NUMBER FOUR is awesome. I watched this movie last Saturday with a colleague in IOI Mall. Let me try to list down a few factors that quite appealing in this movie.



1. The casts

For a movie to be a box office hit, the casts are the main reason other than a great storyline. Take Twilight saga for an example. The story about vampire was quite a hit among teens when the movie is released but what attracts most was the line of casts. Robert Pattinson (also known for his minor role as Cedric Diggory in Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire) was speculated to have the perfect face for a pale vampire. He impressed everyone including the writer of the saga, Stephanie Mayer during the audition. As for IANF, Alex Pettyfer can be considered as a rookie in Hollywood although he had acted in several movies back in his homeland Europe. Being only 21 and rookie doesn’t affect his acting in the movie. Believe or not, his American accent is so good that it’s hard to believe that he’s from Britain. I heart this guy. So I dared to update my Facebook with a virtual threat to Robert Pattinson to back off with now Alex is here to swirl Hollywood~ For your information, I was never a fan of Twilight. Be it the novel or the movie. A vampire doesn’t appeal to me. Period. The co-star of Alex is Dianna Agron, a Glee star who suits Alex well in the movie. Rumor has it that Alex and Dianna is dating. Another two characters that I found interesting was Callan McAuliffe, a science geek and Alex’s best friend in the movie and also Tim Olyphant who is Henri, the guardian for Alex. I have a thing for geeks so the young Sam (yes, he’s only in his mid-teen and he’s an Aussie) quite attractive to my eyes. No, that makes me sound like a pedophile.

2. The storyline

As I told a friend of mine, the early scenes reminds me of Avatar. All the tree climbing and swift runs in the dark forest made it more like that *laughs*. I never thought there will be a sequel for this movie but towards the ending, I knew there is gonna be a sequel. Although the story had left us with so many questions but I find that’s a good way to get more audience for the sequel. I hate it when a movie is so dark for us to see anything but the highlight of the movie is the ‘torchlight’ hand, a power that John Smith (Alex) possesses. I love it whenever he shoves his luminous hands when he’s in a dark space or testing his power on his dog. The story is about 9 people who were just kids when they were brought to the Earth from their planet Lorien after evil took place. According to the John’s guardian, these 9 people have to unite and use their legacies to protect their people. Too bad those 3 out of 9 survivors are killed and the mankind on Lorien is wiped off clean by the Mogadorians. It’s a story with a good balance of teenage romance and action. And I love those action scenes. (This is called the effect of Pettyfer-izing. Everything that Alex did in the movie is pure love)

3. The emotions
Although John appears to be a rebellious boy as it can be seen when he stands out most
and runs away from home although his guardian prevents him to do so, he still shed tears
when Henri was killed by one of the evil forces that hunt them down. It was touching
when he told Number Six that he wants to kill a certain Mogadorian who happens to be the
Henri-killer. Romance between Sarah and John is lovely as I found love isn’t the aspect the writer or the director emphasis on. The chemistry is just nice. Speaking of humor, it came from John, Henri, Sam and even the leader of the Mogadorian. Sam was a charm towards the ending of the movie for e.g. he tries to flirt with Number 6 when she showed up in front them. Well I didn’t cry for any scene in the movie but I had these “aww” moments when Henri died and John’s dog (which turns out to be a Chimera, an animal protector maybe) got hurt after a fight with a lizard monster of the Mogadorians.

from left : Jake Abel (Mark James), Dianna Agron (Sarah), Alex Pettyfer (John), Callan McAuliffe (Sam) and Teresa Palmer (Number Six)

Overall it wasn’t waste of my RM20 worth movie session as I enjoyed the movie from the beginning till the end. And it helps me to reduce my stress somehow. I’m thinking of watching Sanctum, Rango and Beastly (another charm of Alex). Movie date, anyone?

Trailer

Be smart when choosing your path in education~

too much to say but unlimited time. all of a sudden my internet usage is cut down to an hour per day. what the heck? anyway, life must go on~ People nowadays tend to choose the easy way. Be it education or life. As an ex-STPM student, I would like to share my views on it. Unlike most of the STPM leavers, I won't discourage you when if you wants to study Form 6. I know how it feels like when you are not encouraged to pursue one of the toughest examinations in the world. (Or is it in Asia only?) My advice: Choose STPM if and only if you are willing to sacrifice your desires (only at a certain time) and focus on your studies. Have you ever wondered why there are still students in large numbers that willing to do Form Six despite all the other options we have in our country? We have Matriculations, Form Six, A-Level in private colleges and even diploma or foundation courses in IPTAs. Let me get this straight.

Matriculations are for excellent SPM scorers which have a higher percentage of the quota for the Bumiputera students. They have semester which means once they are done with the semester, they can put aside the syllabuses that they had studied for the semester and start fresh for the upcoming semester.

A-Level is for wealthy or sponsored kids (mostly Non-Bumis) who scored well in SPM but didn’t get any offer from government institutes. A-Level can be the easiest way if your family is rich enough to support your education expenses and you can cope with the stress.

Foundation/Diploma courses in IPTAs are also mostly for Bumiputera students. What annoys me most is that because of that one damn quota system, most of the good and deserved non-Bumiputera students doesn’t get a chance to pursue their tertiary education in an easier way. I had seen some of my friends who didn’t score well in SPM still get to do a diploma course in IPTA and they are Bumiputeras.

Can you see what the problems are? Money and quota system. Thus, those students with good results but unaffordable have to resort to their last and terrifying decision. Form Six. I had seen in my year quite a number of straight A scorers doing Form 6 when they all deserve to pursue their diploma or foundation.

If my words can reach the nation's education department, i would love to suggest that please remove the quota system. everyone from every race is deserve to pursue their dreams in an affordable fee. after all, abolishing STPM won't be a need if the quota system is abolished instead. we are 1Malaysia and therefore, i demand for a better education system in the country and only with education we can improvise our country from all aspect.

quotes my teacher, Knowledge is power~

p/s: no offense to my malay friends. i love you all~ ♥

amidst loneliness~

loneliness will creep into our nights and stay with us all night. that's when we feel like we are under an Imperius Curse. IT will control our brain and actions. tears are uncontrollable and there won't be specific reason behind those tear drops. wish i can pour all these to someone and hug them and regain my "i'm not alone" feeling. but when i look around me, there's no one. my online friends are trying to cheer me up and i'm grateful for that but honestly, i want someone beside me now.

i hesitate to text anyone or comment in anyone's Facebook status. i'm bored but they might think i'm nosing into their lives. i feel like i might annoy them to a certain level. i wish i'm back in my school days where i have my bestie, friends, classmates and teachers to keep me occupied with something. i can only wish....

First Day of Work

Being a receptionist in an office that is filled with warm and friendly staffs (i must admit only 80% are friendly though) is quite fun in its own way. After attending a few calls, i got used to the work. Other than attending and transfering the calls and general desk works, i don't have pretty much work to do. so i made a mental note to bring my Harry along tomorrow. since Chinese New Year mood is still up in the air, there were only 10 employees which consists of 3 chinese including the 'boss'. So that can be the reason of lack of work for me today. and since this is my first ever job, i was amazed by the pantry. yes, the PANTRY! (silly me~) so another mental note. Bring my mug along with Harry tomorrow~

Things will be normal tomorrow as most of the staffs will be back to work and that means more calls need to attend and hopefully i won't screw up. i'm sleepy already so heading to bed now. i know that sounds weird when it comes from me but yes, i'm planning to sleep early and wake up early xP Nitez virtual world~

Reviving my blog

the time is 2:34am and yet i don't find myself sleepy. i told myself that i would go offline at 3am. i hate it when my life has a fixed routine. right now, i'm staying at my sister's place in puchong. her new house is under renovation so she and her hubby is quite busy with the shopping. there were a few times where i was left to take care of her 4-year old daughter. she's not a troublemaker but quite stubborn. i've my own ways to control her. other than that, i will do some house chores such as cooking, sweeping, folding clothes and make beds. when i told my friends, they responded that i've potential to be a good wife. *laughs* speaking of being a house wife, i want to be a housewife once i get married. my hubby need to have a good salary so that i don't have to work to support our family. a year of enjoying our fresh married life and then,children. i love twin babies. so hope that my future hubby have genetic for twin babies running down his family line. i want to cook and be in charge of my family. i'll be tired by the end of the day and my hubby can comfort me.

enough with my imagination of married life xD

right now i spend more time on facebook but still i find it boring when no one interact with me. most of the time, i would just play cityville and try my best to develop my city. blogging should be interesting but i don't know what should i blog about. (even this entry is to ensure my blog won't simply die like that =.=) i'm thinking of writing short stories and posting them here. but blame my procrastination, i haven't finish what i've started T__T

i would like to recommend this song for my readers~