2am-ish and i'm still awake despite that i need to sit for my Introduction to Critical Thinking paper tomorrow at friggin 9am!!!
Need to wake up at 7.30am but i couldn't sleep. Feeling one kind. What if whatever i had studied will not be asked in the paper tomorrow? It's kinda paranoia when i had sat for major exams and disappointed everyone including myself by not preparing well for the examinations.
The subjects, in my point of view are quite easy especially when you are 21 years old and doing diploma in language-related field.
These few days i have been revising together with my coursemate's housemates who happens to be studying Forensic Science. my once-upon-a-time ambition. it really heartbreaking to see people who managed somehow to take upon that course and be a forensic scientist for real in the future meanwhile me, who wished so hard to be one, end up with a future as an English teacher. i knew being teacher is not a bad thing but the regret for not giving my best to achieve my dream will be in me always...
So as a future English teacher, who aspires me? of course, it's Sir Shamsul Fadzali. He's the one who made me realize that English lessons can be fun as long as you know how to conduct them. I miss being his bilingual dictionary and listening to him reading literature components as my bedtime stories 
this is just a random entry as i'm quite stressed up but now, i guess that i have to face my notes back. 
All the best!
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