torture me in a way i couldn't complain~

allow me to say this; Love is complicated. way too omplicated.

it's aching...

not just my body, but my mind as well.

sorry dear heart, for all the rollercoaster feelings that i had about him;

sorry dear brain, for all those overworks without supplying enough oxygen to you by not sleeping;

sorry dear wrist, for being the victim of my self-hurting whenever thoughts about him flashes in my mind;

and sorry me, for hurting myself and others around me because of one guy...

when things ends up like this, wishes are made...

wish that i never confess to him about my feelings...

wish that i never fell in love with him...

wish that i never get to know him...

i can never compare the love i had for you with others that i had previous. but one thing for sure, you are special in a way i couldn't figure out why i'm addicted to you!!!

love ya~

BRB!

I know i should update my blog especially now that i have started my university life. anyway, will be back with an entry of my life updates soon!!

let me be the one who colours my life~

Well not getting an offer from the IPTA doesn’t mean the end of the world, old folks. I’m sick of being an object that satisfies your dreams instead of mine. Apologies for disappointing you all several times and I had reached a mentality where I feel like I shouldn’t bother much about what you think I should do.

My Life, My way~

And that means I’m different than the others you had raised~

burning midnight oil...AGAIN

i'm back. seriously, i JAElous while reading my friend's blog posts. man, they are like..AWESOME. they write and share AWESOME stuffs. more important, it's like they are talking to us. (*bangs my head* why can't i write something like that?) i should stop my movie reviewing habits and start on something INTERESTING~

starting the post with my usual rant. first and most importand thing is -->

I'm going to start my studies like real soon. NEXT MONDAY~

well if you had read my previous posts, you would have known just how much i wanted to start studying again. i'm gonna spend my next 4 and half years in MSU for my Diploma and Bachelors in TESL~ if only i didn't screwed up my STPM, *sigh* anyhow, 4 years gonna fly so fast that in no time i will return to Kampar as an English teacher. *big grin*

but i have a BIG list of what should i buy. i can't even return to Kampar this weekend.

i miss my dad =(

[MOVIE REVIEW] KO~ Really is the KING!

-LOVE is what important not how the personality of the person that loves-

"KO" is a Tamil political-thriller flick. Starred by all-time cute but charismatic Jeeva and co-starred by Karthika Nair (who is the daughter of actress Radha) and Pia Bajpai~ The movie revolves a 2-month (if i'm not mistaken) period where it is the election time in Tamil Nadu and

about the individuals that were involved~

Let's start with what i love about this movie.

-This is a KV Anand's movie. if this name doesn't remind you of anything, then let me refresh your mind. He's the director of 2009 smash hit movie, Ayan. he directed "Kana Kanden" which was also one-of-its kind~ seriously, he rocked by making his movies have twists and turns which really impressive^^

-Jeeva! I don't really go gaga over this guy as i'm not much fan of his works. but i knew he's one of the talented actors out there. SMS was boring (though it appeals many of my friends) but KO is enough to pull me towards him ^^

- Story. That's the main attraction. The very first scene itself is freaking attractive. of course, after you had minus the unrealistic part (the bike scene during the chasing scene)~ i got an impression that "woah! i would kill to be a photographer like him" and quotes a line said by the actress; "His photos tells a story itself" and the credits definitely goes to the actual photographer for the movie. and there's the love part. it's the same cliché where both actress fell for the actor.

-The twists. I couldn't elaborate on this since it's will spoil the fun if you yet to watch the movie~ i seriously fell in love with that movie because of the twists~

-Music. Awesome works by Harris Jayaraj. enough said.

Something I don't like~

-i'm actually against the love part of this movie. Pia Bajpai is the crazy-like girl (we say "gila-gila" in Malay) and she loves Jeeva and once the actual main actress came enters the story, there

were sparks between Jeeva and Karthika~ And when he got to know Pia's love, Jeeva said I don't see her in that way and since her personality is crazy, he didn't take it seriously. that's kinda offending since i'm a more like Pia's character in this story. just because a girl is being childish and open-minded doesn't mean her love can be underestimate. and it's freaking OBVIOUS that Pia is in love with Jeeva in that movie but apparently Jeeva didn't realise~ i hate that~

Overall, KO is a must watch movie. and you are hearing it from a very picky Tamil movie-goer xD

Fangirling over Sidharth~

HELLLLLLLLLLLOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~

it's been a while,ne*?

so this post shall be all about my first ever crush. well he's an actor. (i know that's lame but yeah,that's me xD)

His name is Sidharth~ you can Google it if you need more info on him. He's really cute. maybe the first ever Indian guy that i think way too cute to go gaga over him.

His debut is a Tamil movie entitled "Boys"~ it was back in August (i think it is that month) 2003. to be more specific, he's my love at first sight. since that movie was about young boys, i thought he was 16 or maximum of 20 years old. shock came when i read his biodata and knew he was a

79-er which means he's 32 years old~ *sigh*

the greatest shock was in mid December 2003 when i read an tamil newspaper excerpt that mentioned his marriage with his girlfriend for years on 3rd November the same year. (it was only 2 days before my birthday) *sobs harder*

after managed to overcame my grief, i was happy to know his second Tamil movie will be released in 2004~ Aayutha Ezhuthu and i was totally fangirling over him again.

but that was it.

somehow producers and directors in Telugu film industry found he was talented and 'captured' him~ he was freaking famous in Telugu industry and moved to Bollywood and more success followed in suit.

overall, he's an awesome famous talented actor in both Telugu and Bollywood industries~

and now he's BACK TO KOLLYWOOD!!!!!!

his new movie is entitled "180 Rules Kidaiyathu" (literally means "180 No rules") and it's

directed to be released simultaneously in both Telugu and Tamil movie industries.

i want to watch that movie so freaking much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yes, i'm back as a Sidharth fangirl ^^

this picture is quite old but well,he's charming~ ♥

p/s : "ne" is actually a korean word that brings the meaning "yes" as in agreeing to something~

My new ♥

23^rd June 2011 marks the latest addition to our family. My eldest sister gave birth to a healthy 3.1kg baby boy. I’m an aunt again =) so that got me excited. I went to visit the mother and baby at the Roopi Medical Center around 3pm and found my mom chit chatting with another two women. Apparently, we are not allowed to hold the baby nor take a good close look at him due to hygienic reason. So we just waited outside the labor and some hours later, the nurse brought the baby for a wash and places him in the ward.

As for the baby, he’s a mini version of his dad. Well they did told me that the baby looks like his sister whom resembles the young me so I’d thought that baby would look like me. =.=

Nevermind, he’s my new love ♥

Snapped a few photos of him and this is one of them =)

isn't he such a cutie pie? ^0^