Love is weird~

i'm curious. we can't fall in love twice? or maybe thrice? and all of them is not as true as our first love?

love is weird. once we fell in love with someone, be it one-sided or not, it actually affects the way we behave. i had fallen in and out love for...err...twice, i think. (both are one-sided) but i wouldn't say that my second crush is a fake love or merely an infatuation. i know i like him enough to dream my rest of my life with him. that's all.

love is weird. especially when it controls us. you just can't stop thinking about the significant one and probably there's always something about him/her that makes you smile like a fool. they say, if you are in love, it will portrayed on your face. you will be bright and romantic and bla bla bla~

love is weird. if you keep holding onto a guy that already showed a big 'X' sign for your love. why waiting when you know there's zero possibility that he would realize that he likes you anyway and returns to you? in my case, i would simply plaster the same answer he gave to me. although me too holding to my love for him.

as for my first love, i know it was as true as my second one and i had learnt to move on (just stop stalking his FB profile =.=;;) maybe i will fall in love again for the third time (which i don't think anytime soon) and it will be the same thing all over again.

p/s : my point of writing this is to those that thinks love only blossoms once, think again~ you can never expect to be your's wife's/husband's first and last love. try to move on and find another special someone to share your love. after all, love is meant to be shared isn't it? ^_^

Am too busy~

My previous post is quite a rambling of what I felt at that moment. But I liked that self of me. To be able to express what I want in words is something that I usually won’t do.

Theng gave me a book to read. It’s called The Passage by Justin Cronin. She said it’s so nice and when she said so, I believe it would be a nice book to read. Too bad that I just can’t find enough time to read the book like I read Harry Potter saga. And I bought Sidney Sheldon’s The Sky is Falling. I always have a mutual attraction towards thriller books and Sheldon rocks when it comes to end a story in a twisted way. And Stephen King also. Bought a notepad yesterday and made a deal with Theng to write a fictional story by hand. It’s been a while since I write any fictional stories and already I have four on-going fan fictions on hiatus. *sigh* that’s why I’m thinking of spending at least a month after my resignation to finish my writing works. Well that cost me a month of salary but never mind. Along with the notepad, I bought a glass jar with papers to make paper stars. Speaking of stars, it reminds me of Taylor Swift’s Teardrops on My Guitar which has a line that goes like this;

“He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do”

that's the same reason why i'm making these paper stars~ The rumor has it that once a person made 100 paper stars, they can wish for one thing and it will come true. I have a dear wish that I really hope will come true. Yes, what you are thinking is right. I’m making a wish after I made a hundred of those stars^^