Pouring my heart out~

it's quite weird when you like someone and they knew it but still nothing happens~ i want to know what can i do to win his heart and make him mine (although all this should be said by a boy to girl not vice verse) i'm quite shallow when it comes to winning a boy's heart~ and if i should wait, i wonder how long it should be~ he don't have a girlfriend at the moment but when he have one other than me in the future, i would be devastated~ but i will move on except it would take quite some weeks or maybe months. mind you, it took me 3 freaking years to move on from my first love although he 'haunts' me a bit~ i feel like shouting to the world (here, it should mean my virtual world such as Facebook and Twitter) that I LOVE *inserts his name* SO MUCH!!!!!! but i can't do that,right?

-end of my rambling-

Japan and me~

Prayers for Japan~ really hope that Japan can get all the help they need to get back to their old self. They had survived not one but two atomic bombs but still, these tsunamis and blasts in nuclear plant reactors are terrorizing all of us. Ganbarre!

And that sensational cartoon that featured in Berita Harian with an intention to “lighten” our tense is an absurd act. But since they had apologized (sincerely or not), just hope no more such ridiculous actions from them.

Back to my life~

These few days it’s been hard for even me to understand my own feelings. There are times where I miss a certain few people so much and hate a few people over petty reasons. There’s someone who even said I’m being petulant because he didn’t send a reply to my text message. Well I’m not much of a SMS person so please appreciate when I take time out of my precious minutes for you. Moody and disgruntled at random times. No, it’s not the “time” of the month if that’s what you think could be the reason.


On the other hand, I had just been labeled as a “weird” colleague. Even I’m surprised to hear that from Puchong girl. I mean, I’m supposedly from Kampar; a small not-so-developed town so shouldn’t I am the village girl in this city? And this colleague of mine is kinda a...erm…I don’t what word should be used to describe her nature but she’s the typical type of Indian girl. For me, I can spend a lot for food as long as it’s delicious. I eat Italian, Japanese, Chinese and Thai foods. (Korean should be add to the list as I had tried “bibimbap” once) There’s a “Little Italy” café located just on the very next building of my office. For me who already been longing for a delicious plate of spaghetti, her refusal to tag along for lunch is a great dismay. And the reason was she never tried nor will try Italian food. Duh, but no one likes to have lunch alone. She was greatly surprised that I’m willing to spend more money for food when I had Domino’s Pizza for lunch and huge piece of King’s Tiramisu cake. I never hesitate to spend money for food. Be it treating myself or my friends. And she never tries Japanese rice cakes that I bought for snacks.

Currently I’m not in any romantic relationship. I’m not even serious in looking for one. Many expect me to have one or two by now but I’m single. *laughs* My last (and current) one-sided love is only a year plus old. Some more I’m not rushing into this matter.

My bestie and I had a little chat last evening and we were planning for a girls-day out in KL which might be on Labor’s day holidays. I’m looking forward as we never been outside Kampar as trio and this could be the chance for us to heal our wounded friendship. Loges and Thenga, me <3

I am Number Five

^ I’m the fifth and youngest addition to my family and heck, even my birth date is 5.

Before starting on my rambling for the day, let me remind you that I’m 19 years, 3 months and 4 days old.

So as a girl who’s in her last year of her teen life, I found that the movie I AM NUMBER FOUR is awesome. I watched this movie last Saturday with a colleague in IOI Mall. Let me try to list down a few factors that quite appealing in this movie.



1. The casts

For a movie to be a box office hit, the casts are the main reason other than a great storyline. Take Twilight saga for an example. The story about vampire was quite a hit among teens when the movie is released but what attracts most was the line of casts. Robert Pattinson (also known for his minor role as Cedric Diggory in Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire) was speculated to have the perfect face for a pale vampire. He impressed everyone including the writer of the saga, Stephanie Mayer during the audition. As for IANF, Alex Pettyfer can be considered as a rookie in Hollywood although he had acted in several movies back in his homeland Europe. Being only 21 and rookie doesn’t affect his acting in the movie. Believe or not, his American accent is so good that it’s hard to believe that he’s from Britain. I heart this guy. So I dared to update my Facebook with a virtual threat to Robert Pattinson to back off with now Alex is here to swirl Hollywood~ For your information, I was never a fan of Twilight. Be it the novel or the movie. A vampire doesn’t appeal to me. Period. The co-star of Alex is Dianna Agron, a Glee star who suits Alex well in the movie. Rumor has it that Alex and Dianna is dating. Another two characters that I found interesting was Callan McAuliffe, a science geek and Alex’s best friend in the movie and also Tim Olyphant who is Henri, the guardian for Alex. I have a thing for geeks so the young Sam (yes, he’s only in his mid-teen and he’s an Aussie) quite attractive to my eyes. No, that makes me sound like a pedophile.

2. The storyline

As I told a friend of mine, the early scenes reminds me of Avatar. All the tree climbing and swift runs in the dark forest made it more like that *laughs*. I never thought there will be a sequel for this movie but towards the ending, I knew there is gonna be a sequel. Although the story had left us with so many questions but I find that’s a good way to get more audience for the sequel. I hate it when a movie is so dark for us to see anything but the highlight of the movie is the ‘torchlight’ hand, a power that John Smith (Alex) possesses. I love it whenever he shoves his luminous hands when he’s in a dark space or testing his power on his dog. The story is about 9 people who were just kids when they were brought to the Earth from their planet Lorien after evil took place. According to the John’s guardian, these 9 people have to unite and use their legacies to protect their people. Too bad those 3 out of 9 survivors are killed and the mankind on Lorien is wiped off clean by the Mogadorians. It’s a story with a good balance of teenage romance and action. And I love those action scenes. (This is called the effect of Pettyfer-izing. Everything that Alex did in the movie is pure love)

3. The emotions
Although John appears to be a rebellious boy as it can be seen when he stands out most
and runs away from home although his guardian prevents him to do so, he still shed tears
when Henri was killed by one of the evil forces that hunt them down. It was touching
when he told Number Six that he wants to kill a certain Mogadorian who happens to be the
Henri-killer. Romance between Sarah and John is lovely as I found love isn’t the aspect the writer or the director emphasis on. The chemistry is just nice. Speaking of humor, it came from John, Henri, Sam and even the leader of the Mogadorian. Sam was a charm towards the ending of the movie for e.g. he tries to flirt with Number 6 when she showed up in front them. Well I didn’t cry for any scene in the movie but I had these “aww” moments when Henri died and John’s dog (which turns out to be a Chimera, an animal protector maybe) got hurt after a fight with a lizard monster of the Mogadorians.

from left : Jake Abel (Mark James), Dianna Agron (Sarah), Alex Pettyfer (John), Callan McAuliffe (Sam) and Teresa Palmer (Number Six)

Overall it wasn’t waste of my RM20 worth movie session as I enjoyed the movie from the beginning till the end. And it helps me to reduce my stress somehow. I’m thinking of watching Sanctum, Rango and Beastly (another charm of Alex). Movie date, anyone?

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Be smart when choosing your path in education~

too much to say but unlimited time. all of a sudden my internet usage is cut down to an hour per day. what the heck? anyway, life must go on~ People nowadays tend to choose the easy way. Be it education or life. As an ex-STPM student, I would like to share my views on it. Unlike most of the STPM leavers, I won't discourage you when if you wants to study Form 6. I know how it feels like when you are not encouraged to pursue one of the toughest examinations in the world. (Or is it in Asia only?) My advice: Choose STPM if and only if you are willing to sacrifice your desires (only at a certain time) and focus on your studies. Have you ever wondered why there are still students in large numbers that willing to do Form Six despite all the other options we have in our country? We have Matriculations, Form Six, A-Level in private colleges and even diploma or foundation courses in IPTAs. Let me get this straight.

Matriculations are for excellent SPM scorers which have a higher percentage of the quota for the Bumiputera students. They have semester which means once they are done with the semester, they can put aside the syllabuses that they had studied for the semester and start fresh for the upcoming semester.

A-Level is for wealthy or sponsored kids (mostly Non-Bumis) who scored well in SPM but didn’t get any offer from government institutes. A-Level can be the easiest way if your family is rich enough to support your education expenses and you can cope with the stress.

Foundation/Diploma courses in IPTAs are also mostly for Bumiputera students. What annoys me most is that because of that one damn quota system, most of the good and deserved non-Bumiputera students doesn’t get a chance to pursue their tertiary education in an easier way. I had seen some of my friends who didn’t score well in SPM still get to do a diploma course in IPTA and they are Bumiputeras.

Can you see what the problems are? Money and quota system. Thus, those students with good results but unaffordable have to resort to their last and terrifying decision. Form Six. I had seen in my year quite a number of straight A scorers doing Form 6 when they all deserve to pursue their diploma or foundation.

If my words can reach the nation's education department, i would love to suggest that please remove the quota system. everyone from every race is deserve to pursue their dreams in an affordable fee. after all, abolishing STPM won't be a need if the quota system is abolished instead. we are 1Malaysia and therefore, i demand for a better education system in the country and only with education we can improvise our country from all aspect.

quotes my teacher, Knowledge is power~

p/s: no offense to my malay friends. i love you all~ ♥

amidst loneliness~

loneliness will creep into our nights and stay with us all night. that's when we feel like we are under an Imperius Curse. IT will control our brain and actions. tears are uncontrollable and there won't be specific reason behind those tear drops. wish i can pour all these to someone and hug them and regain my "i'm not alone" feeling. but when i look around me, there's no one. my online friends are trying to cheer me up and i'm grateful for that but honestly, i want someone beside me now.

i hesitate to text anyone or comment in anyone's Facebook status. i'm bored but they might think i'm nosing into their lives. i feel like i might annoy them to a certain level. i wish i'm back in my school days where i have my bestie, friends, classmates and teachers to keep me occupied with something. i can only wish....

First Day of Work

Being a receptionist in an office that is filled with warm and friendly staffs (i must admit only 80% are friendly though) is quite fun in its own way. After attending a few calls, i got used to the work. Other than attending and transfering the calls and general desk works, i don't have pretty much work to do. so i made a mental note to bring my Harry along tomorrow. since Chinese New Year mood is still up in the air, there were only 10 employees which consists of 3 chinese including the 'boss'. So that can be the reason of lack of work for me today. and since this is my first ever job, i was amazed by the pantry. yes, the PANTRY! (silly me~) so another mental note. Bring my mug along with Harry tomorrow~

Things will be normal tomorrow as most of the staffs will be back to work and that means more calls need to attend and hopefully i won't screw up. i'm sleepy already so heading to bed now. i know that sounds weird when it comes from me but yes, i'm planning to sleep early and wake up early xP Nitez virtual world~

Reviving my blog

the time is 2:34am and yet i don't find myself sleepy. i told myself that i would go offline at 3am. i hate it when my life has a fixed routine. right now, i'm staying at my sister's place in puchong. her new house is under renovation so she and her hubby is quite busy with the shopping. there were a few times where i was left to take care of her 4-year old daughter. she's not a troublemaker but quite stubborn. i've my own ways to control her. other than that, i will do some house chores such as cooking, sweeping, folding clothes and make beds. when i told my friends, they responded that i've potential to be a good wife. *laughs* speaking of being a house wife, i want to be a housewife once i get married. my hubby need to have a good salary so that i don't have to work to support our family. a year of enjoying our fresh married life and then,children. i love twin babies. so hope that my future hubby have genetic for twin babies running down his family line. i want to cook and be in charge of my family. i'll be tired by the end of the day and my hubby can comfort me.

enough with my imagination of married life xD

right now i spend more time on facebook but still i find it boring when no one interact with me. most of the time, i would just play cityville and try my best to develop my city. blogging should be interesting but i don't know what should i blog about. (even this entry is to ensure my blog won't simply die like that =.=) i'm thinking of writing short stories and posting them here. but blame my procrastination, i haven't finish what i've started T__T

i would like to recommend this song for my readers~